So, I could give an explanation as to why I haven't posted in a long time but my only excuse is that my laptop doesn't work (again). And that excuse became invalid when I downloaded Blogger on my tablet. So really I have no excuse.
I'm happy to say that I am finally making a slow climb back up in my life. My depression has gotten a lot better thanks to new meds and some pretty cool people. The day I realized that I really wanted to live felt incredible. This cloud of darkness had finally released me and I felt free. I've cut my dad out of my life completely and I really think that it's helped. He's been a real asshole in this divorce and it effects me as well as my mom. However, my mom hardly lets me go a day without hearing something about him in one way or another (negatively). So, I cannot wait to go to NIU this fall. I think that once I am on my own, I can fully focus on life.
I haven't been doing much besides work and school lately. I talk to a couple people here and there but not much more than that. I've been trying to become a crew trainer at work for about two and half years now and I think they have finally decided on a way to train us to be crew trainers that they are going to stick to long enough to get the title. They have changed the process on becoming a crew trainer so many times the last couple years it's ridiculous. I really just want to get paid for the work I've been doing for years. And for some reason, all of last week and this past weekend we were absolutely swamped. I mean, when I work six days in a row and get close to overtime, its been a pretty bad week. Needless to say, if I had gotten a call from work on that seventh day, I was not picking it up. But that next check will look pretty.
School has been alright. That's all I have to say about that.
Oh, I've been binge watching anime. And reading. Check out the book Ella Minnow Pea sometime. It's so different. I don't feel like typing out a sypnosis so Imma just copy and paste: "Ella Minnow Pea is a girl living happily on the fictional island of Nollop off the coast of South Carolina. Nollop was named after Nevin Nollop, author of the immortal pangram,* “The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.” Now Ella finds herself acting to save her friends, family, and fellow citizens from the encroaching totalitarianism of the island’s Council, which has banned the use of certain letters of the alphabet as they fall from a memorial statue of Nevin Nollop. As the letters progressively drop from the statue they also disappear from the novel. The result is both a hilarious and moving story of one girl’s fight for freedom of expression, as well as a linguistic tour de force sure to delight word lovers everywhere." It's so interesting to read a book without certain letters. You realize just how important vowels are and how frequently some letters are used that you wouldn't normally think about. It's pretty short. I think I read it in two hours. So its not a big committment.
I would love to play video games sometime but my controller is acting up so bad. Playing Skyrim is just out of the question because I end up drawing my weapon and killing a guard or my husband when I haven't touched any buttons. I can't even watch Blu Ray on the ps3 because it randomly starts fast forwarding and I can't get it to stop. I just need to suck it up and buy a new one. All hope has been lost for this one.
I hope everyone is doing well and I hope this blog can come back to life sometime (I promise Marissa, I read your post a few weeks ago).
*I just copied this into google translate to listen and hear if I made any spelling errors by accident (it's not underlining anything on my tablet) and I'm crying xD it was so funny to hear this robotic cheerful woman say all of this.
