Tuesday, December 3, 2013

hello fellow human beans

Hi. :) I'm really excited right now and I feel the need to post. So buogiorno mes amis! It's probably just the coffee (aka jet fuel). And I've had a really great past couple of days. I thought this week was going to be horrible with 12 papers to write on top of studying and everything, but a lot of great things have happened that have motivated me and kept me happy. I wanna go skip around campus, tossing flowers into the air. Like the weather??!!! I'm loving the foggy rain. And I've adopted an imaginary friend who always sits beside me and keeps me positive and working. I swear I'm not losing it! I feel more sane than I have for most of the semester, so I'm not going crazy; he just really helps. Plus, it's not super late, so I'm good. Just, life! and love! and coffee! I'm loving it all.

And I'm really excited for winter break. I might just spend a couple days at everyone's house because I wanna kiss all of your faces so much and cuddle you in your sleep and spin you around until you see stars.

This has been one of the most difficult, rewarding three months of my life, and not just because of the workload. In my life outside of the classroom, as well. For me personally and with all of my relationships: with you guys and my family. I feel like we've all been through so much individually in such a short period of time and that's only made it more intense and rough. We all deserve a massive break and a night of just chilling out and talking. Or not. I just really like talking. Oh! And you guys gotta remind me about the jars! The jars are gonna be fun. I think I'm gonna throw a house party when break starts. I now understand why college kids party and drink so much.

Here have this half-naked ghost guy punching out your virginity.

byeeeeeee 

Alex














Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Story of my first kiss

So last night I got my first kiss, and I was going to wait to tell you ladies in person, but the way it happened was just so cute that I can't wait.

Last night after chemistry club Connor and I decided to have a movie night since we weren't going to see each other until next week. So we went back to his dorm and when we got inside he just kind of stood in the middle of the room. After a few seconds he pointed up to the ceiling, and there was a ductaped devil's trap there. I fangirled like crazy and took a picture of it right away (posted below) and he laughed nervously and turned red. He said, "this is really cheesy and I'm sorry but I'm stuck and can't leave until you kiss me."

It was the cutest, nerdiest thing ever and I absolutely loved it.

About halfway through the movie his roommate came in with this conspiring smile and asked, "so how did Sara like our devil's trap?" I thought it was the cutest thing ever and I'm still smiling just thinking about it.

Nothing But The Truth

Ladies. This will probably only piss you guys off, and I'm sorry.  But I need to tell you all of this, especially since this is important to me. I'm a horrible person.
With Luis, I've come to realize that he's not the one treating me bad, but I'm the one who is treating him like crap. A relationship takes two people. You can't expect some guy to come in on a magic unicorn and sweep you off of your feet, then take ahold of the entire relationship. That's not how it works. And I've come to realize this. Right now, I don't have a connection with Luis, and who knows, maybe I never will. But at the moment he truly does make me happy and does everything he can to keep it that way. And the only reason he gets mad at me is because I don't talk to him, and I'm usually only concerned about myself. That's terrible. And now that I've realized this, I'm working to change it. I know you ladies don't like Luis and assume the worst of him, but he truly is a really good guy. He cares for me and is willing to put his life on the line for me. I realized this in the accident on Sunday. I'll get into that in a bit. Anyways, he made sure that I was okay and not injured before he even worried about himself. He even pulled me through the passenger side door while I was disoriented and trying to get out the drivers side, where cars were driving. I probably would have gotten hit by a car if he hadn't pulled me over to his side. He even traded his coat with me when I was cold and waiting for the cop to file the accident report. He didn't even worry about himself until after he knew I was okay. And he still is constantly asking if I'm alright. And about a week ago, we went to a concert together. My very first concert. It was freezing, and we had to stay outside in the cold for an hour before they opened the doors to let us in. Luis was worried about me getting sick, and told me we should go find someplace warm to stay in until the doors opened. I told him no. Why? Because I was stubborn and thought that waiting in line out in the cold would be better. So he gave me his coat and froze for me. I tried giving him his coat back, but he wouldn't take it. Then when we got into the concert, he wanted to go into the middle of the crowd with me and actually enjoy the concert and have the full experience with moshing and carrying people above my head. I again said no. My reasoning for this was kind of solid. I mean, I'm afraid of crowds and am extremely claustrophobic with people. But still, you can't just blow off our guy like that. That's not fair. Even when I had no money, he made sure I was fed and okay. I'm only telling you ladies this because I care about you, and I want you to be able to accept the boy I care about as well. I'm the one who messed everything up in my relationship, and now I'm going to fix it. I may not even end up with Luis in the future, but I'm going to try because I truly care about him, and I need you guys to see that he really does care about me and is willing to sacrifice everything he has in order to make me happy.

On another note. I'm sorry this is getting so long, but I have a lot to catch you guys up on, and this is the only free time I've had in awhile. So yeah. I got in an accident on Sunday. The front end of my car is totaled, and now I don't have a car. Here's a couple pictures of my poor baby.


So yeah. There's my baby. She got pretty hurt. And now she's dead. So... my dad and I are gonna hopefully buy a car tomorrow.
Anyways.. I miss you all horribly. And I feel like you guys are slowly beginning to not care about me anymore. I'm sorry I've missed just about everything you have done recently. I truly am extremely busy. I'm working a lot in order to pay for things like my car and insurance and stuff. And even after that its really difficult to have enough money left over to be able to drive to places. Which I can't do anyways at the moment since I lost both my license and my car.. But yeah. So.. I'm sorry. And I want you guys to know that I feel unloved and unwanted by you. I'm sorry that I can't make it to anything you do. It would be a lot easier if I still lived in Rockford. :(
Well.. I'll stop bugging you ladies, and I hope you can understand that I'm being sincere and I'm not trying to be mean. I still love you ladies from the deepest depths of my heart. I just don't want to ever lose you. 

Avec amour,
Marissa

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Red Riding Hood

Hey ladies. It's been awhile, huh? God. It's been so hectic lately. I just wanna curl up in a ball and lay there forever. D;
Anyways. That's not why I'm posting to finally let you guys read the story I wrote for my class a few weeks ago. The Little Red Riding Hood one. (;
Anyways, here it is.


            The young girl slipped on her red baseball cap as she made her way out the door. It was a particularly beautiful day. The sun shone brightly in the clear blue sky with only a mere few clouds floating endlessly by. Violet was her name, as given by her parents, who were long since deceased. Rather, she dwelled with her grandmother in a little cottage down south, where trees grew magnificently and woodland creatures ran about freely in the forest that surrounded the village. 
            Violet gracefully walked along the path that led to the village, humming a sweet tune to herself. Her grandmother’s house was on the outskirts of the village, and this was the only way to reach the select few shops that the village offered. Today, Violet was going for something particular. As of late, her grandmother had fallen quite ill and the young girl wished to visit the village to bring home some healthy foods for which to care for her poor granny. Thus, she strode on with a purpose, and also hoped to not be out for long.
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            The chimneys of the village came into sight, and Violet picked up her pace. The shops weren’t too far, and in fact, she reached them quite quickly. Her pace slowed to a steady walk as she searched the shop fronts for the items she was looking for. There were many varieties to choose from, but with the little money she had, Violet had to keep treading forward. Finally she came upon a shop that seemed slightly dilapidated. This, she mused, seems like the right place to shop. She entered the shop and looked about cautiously. There didn’t seem to be anybody about, so she began to idly glance at the items available in the store. There didn’t seem to be anything particularly interesting just breads, jams and various sorts of fruits and vegetables. There was something, however, standing on the counter that caught her attention. She approached the counter warily, inspecting the object with immense curiosity. The object was a small wooden hourglass. The sand slowly trickled into the bottom, as if someone had recently flipped it over.
            Just then a figure appeared behind the counter. This startled young Violet, and she jumped away from the counter.
 “Oh! I didn’t mean to scare you, dear.” The figure stated sadly.
Violet looked the figure over with languid fear, but he offered her a genuine smile to reassure her safety. Violet relaxed slightly and took note of his features. It was a man with slightly odd in appearance, tall, lanky, and hunched over. His face was dirty and covered in stubble, and his facial features seemed almost animal-like. His teeth, she noticed, were sharp and rotted.
“My, what sharp teeth you have,” she pointed out carefully.
The man’s face contorted in confusion, but he quickly understood her question and grinned.
“I am of a poor family. My teeth have been sharpened throughout the years of eating rough meats and stale bread.”
His answer was understandable, so Violet nodded and looked around the shop once more.
“My dear granny is ill, and I am wandering around the village looking for a meal to cook for her.”
            The man’s grin grew further as he inquired her question. “I have fresh bread that is fit for any sick folk. I can whip up a hot soup as well.”
Violet’s spirit rose, and a smile broke out upon her lips. “How much for the soup and bread?”
“Altogether..” he paused briefly, “fifteen pieces.”
Fifteen? Violet frowned. She only had eight pieces on her. “How much for just bread?”
The man shook his head. “Oh dear, don’t you fret. I’ll deliver the soup and bread to your cottage for just five pieces.”
Upon mentioning her cottage, Violet grew wary of this man. “Oh, no. I wouldn’t be able to accept. I will just buy some bread and carry it myself. I wouldn’t want to burden a poor stranger.”
The man’s grin faded. Instead, he adorned a look of sadness. “Nonsense m’dear. I will bring a hot soup and some bread for your dear granny later t’night, and I won’t take any more than five pieces from ya. Please accept this gift from a gentle stranger.”
Violet paused and thought for a moment. This man did seem genuinely kind, and was willing to offer her a cheap meal. Her granny would starve if she didn’t accept. Violet didn’t have enough money for anything else.
“I accept your offer, kind sir. Here is five pieces.”
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            The young girl spent a few more hours around town, seeing if there was anything she could buy with the remaining money. She came across a little shop selling candies, and decided she would treat herself. She entered the shop and spent two of the three remaining pieces on a butterscotch candy. Her favorite.
            Violet gleefully stuck the butterscotch into her mouth and suckled slowly, savoring the flavor. Her feet gently hit the ground as she walked on the path back to her granny’s cottage. The strange man with the soup and bread crossed her mind as she made her way back. She wondered why he was being genuinely kind to her. Had he felt sympathy for her? Must be. Maybe he went through the same experience before and felt empathetic. She was quickly distracted from thoughts about the man as her gaze caught sight of the blooming forest flowers surrounding the path.
            The young girl finally made it back to her grandmother’s cottage, and pulled off her red baseball cap before entering. “I’m home grann—“ she stopped suddenly as a sudden pungent metallic scent mixed with herbs filled her nostrils. She carefully made her way into the kitchen and noticed a giant pot sitting on her grandmother’s stove. She approached the stove and peeked inside. The content within the steaming pot was a reddish liquid with a few herbs and meats. Soup?  
“You’re home, little red cap.”
The little girl was startled, but thinking it was just her granny with a voice hoarse from illness, merely replied, “Yes, grandmother. What a hoarse voice you have. Are you feeling alright?”
She turned around to regard the health of her sick granny, but was frightened by the sight of the man from the shop earlier. He must’ve delivered the soup and bread.
The man smiled, assuring her it was alright.
“Where is granny?” Violet inquired as her gaze settled upon his face warily.
“She is in bed, little red cap. She has eaten and is fairing much better.”
Violet let out a sigh and sat down at the table in front of the stove. Before her lay a bowl of the strange soup, a cup of what she assumed was wine, and a slice of bread.
“Eat, little red cap. I am sure you are hungry.”
“Is this for me?” She questioned as she motioned towards the food set out before her.
The man nodded.
Violet took hold of the spoon sitting with the bowl and took a sip of the broth. It was a blend of odd flavors, and she gagged again at the metallic scent invading her nostrils. She knew not whether to be intrigued or disgusted by this new soup. Instead, she put the spoon down and took a bite of the bread. The bread was a much better option and tasted wonderful. The soft dough was easy on her taste buds. She grabbed the wine and took a swig to wash the bread down. It was odd, she thought, how kind this stranger was. Should she be trusting him?

            Her thoughts were soon interrupted as she began to feel increasingly drowsy. Why was she sleepy all of a sudden? Must be because of her little village adventure today. Such naïve thoughts, and unwise choices. Thus, they were here last thoughts before she slipped out of her chair and slipped into darkness. Before she fell to the shadows, however, she noticed something along the wall. Hanging on the wall near the stove was her grandmother’s nightgown.
© Copyright Marissa Vukmir

Monday, November 18, 2013

I wish I could sleep but the plastic lady has taken up residency in my room

I know I said I would stop staying up late but I literally can't fall asleep tonight. (Probably because I stay up so late). I went to bed pretty early, but I laid there for about an hour and a half, listening to my roommate come in and out of the room because she's going through some drama with her friends, and finally I couldn't lay there anymore. Actually, I was online on my phone and I found a very horrifying true life story and it scared the bejesus out of me, so I started hearing noises, and after a quick scan of my room, I literally sprung out of bed, nearly falling on the way down, and booked out of the room. Then I hid out in the bathroom for awhile...until I started hearing noises in there, too. And now, of course, I feel like I'm gonna barf, so I'm just chilling out in the hall, avoiding my haunted room, and waiting for the inevitable. So I decided to post because I might as well do something productive. (Which really isn't productive. I'm just trying to make myself tired.

I'M GLAD YOU LIKED THE PACKAGE SARA IT WAS VERY FUN TO PUT TOGETHER.

I hope you guys had a fabulous weekend. The drag show sounded fun. ;) AND I'M EXTREMELY JEALOUS THAT YOU GOT TO MEET CONNOR, RACHEL.

I think one day I'll show you guys that story, but I'm too freaked to find it again. It's like those creepy pasta things, Marissa.

So I'm very proud of how this presentation is coming along. I think it'll really knock your socks off (among other articles of clothing). It's a real winner. I've been putting a lot of thought into this, mostly because I like planning things, so don't freak out that I'm doing all this stuff. I just really like putting stuff together and doing research for fun.

Some of the girls on my floor just yelled at me to go to bed. If I could, I would.

So I've been assembling a list of movies we should watch when we do a movie night. I'm very proud of myself for it. You guys should start racking 'em up, as well. I've picked some really fun ones, some really sad ones, and  A PARTICULAR ONE WITH A BOY THAT HAS A PARTICULARLY GORGEOUS SMILE THAT WILL MELT YOUR HEART AND TURN YOUR LOINS INTO BUTTER THAT I FEEL BAD FOR LIKING BECAUSE IT IS INCREDIBLY ILLEGAL AT HIS AGE AND I REALLY WANT TO TELL YOU ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW BUT I'M NOT GONNA DO THAT. SO YOU CAN'T BEAT ME I AM ALL POWERFUL.

Sara has a boyfriend. Sorry, it really just hit me tonight.

I really want to try to go to sleep again, but a) I know it won't work, and b) that plastic lady is probably still waiting for me. It's like, before I wasn't scared of things in my room because I thought, "oh, new place, new building, there's all these other people around, nothing bad can happen here." It's like when you sleep at a hotel. It's too sterile to be filled with ghosts. But now that gloss has worn off and now I think there's people hiding under my bed or if I flash the light on my phone around the room that plastic lady with the needle teeth is gonna be staring at me. Then I thought about The Conjuring and how that demon was perched on top of the wardrobe and I thought he might be on top of mine and I freaked out. It's like how I was at home, except I was familiar with all the shadows and shapes in my room. Now a cup on my desk freaks me out.

And I feel like a mom. Most nights I can't sleep until my roommate gets back to our room. I'm not scared for her or anything, I just can't fall asleep until everything is in place. She's supposed to be in bed at 2am, so I have to wait for her to come to bed. I used to do the same thing at home. I couldn't fall asleep until the rest of my family was in bed.

How bout them thunderstorms today? I think a lot of people who aren't from the Midwest got really freaked out. Like them yahoos from California.

I'm so terrified to go back to my room. I wish I could go run to my sister's room like I normally do and curl up with her (this isn't a heartwarming story, we don't roll that way). That was always fun because she would always start screaming at me and kick me off the bed so I'd have to lay on the floor. Then I would slowly slink my way back up the mattress and curl up at her feet like a dog so she wouldn't notice me. Oh my God, this actually happened. What kind of life was I living??

OH! HERE'S SOMETHING IMPORTANT. No wait, I'll tell you in person. I have very many important things to tell you, but I'd rather do it in person because I like seeing the look on people's faces as I tear their world apart.

I taste vomit in my mouth.

Wow, you did not need to know that. But we're all family here, right? RIGHT??

Basically what I want to do is get a big house and put you all in it and see how you live together. I think there would be a lot of fighting, but I think that would be the fun part. You're not truly comfortable with someone until you can point out their flaws in a malicious fashion. No, but I think it'd be fun, doing the dishes together, taking turns for the shower, getting acquainted with eachother's habits that they don't normally show anyone. Like, I like to walk around naked a lot and sleep in the middle of the floor, so that'd be fun to get used to. And, I don't know about you guys, but I, well obviously as you can tell, I have very odd nights where I stay up until I can't feel my face. I have gotten yelled at a lot by my parents for screaming at the top of my lungs and dancing around the house in my underwear at 3am. That'd be fun stuff to explore... I just can't wait to see Marissa passed out in a corner in the middle of the night because she decided it'd be a good place to contact the spirit world. Or listening to Gardenia complain about the clogged up shower drain. Or Rachel pretend that she's a vacuum and start rolling around on the floor. Or waking up in the middle of the night to find Sara 2 inches from your face, whispering an ancient language to you as she attempts to lick your eyeball. I wouldn't mind having my eyeball licked by Sara Rubeck. I think we'd have fun. I think we'd break a lot of stuff. I think we'd discover a lot about each other that we didn't know before. You never truly know someone until you live with them.

That plastic lady is still waiting, I know it. I think I'm gonna fall asleep with the light on.


Sunday, November 17, 2013

THANK YOU!!!

You guys, thank you so much for the package!!! You are all such sweethearts. I love everything so much, and I already found places for my pictures and things. They are all so cute and sweet thoughts I almost started crying when I opened it up. I love you guys so much!!

Friday, November 15, 2013

Guys it's 3:47 in the morning and I'm typing my paper in the computer area with gloved hands. I meant to spell 'beard' and it came out 'bleard' and it's hilarious. Look at the glove on the screen. He's trying to get in the computer; he needs to return to his cyber homeland. Go little guy, you're free.