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Hey ladies. This is Marissa. (:
So, I don't really have anything interesting to say. I just really needed to tell someone this, and I know you all would be the best to tell. I couldn't tell my parents because they don't even like the fact that I'm in a relationship and they would just put me down if I said anything and get mad at me for even talking about it.
Anyways. So Luis and I haven't exactly been connecting lately and it's been throwing us off balance. When we first started it was amazing. I was able to talk to him and our conversations were endless. You all know I have social anxiety. So the fact that I could connect with this boy and actually talk to him was just.. it was perfect. I was happy. We were happy.
And then my parents told us we were moving. Luis got upset and didn't know if we'd be able to make it. I told him we'd be fine. So we remained together. But as our time together in Rockford grew short we began to lose our connection and we'd argue just about every night. There were many times I almost gave up. But then I remembered how we were. And how close I felt with him since we met. So I trudged on with our relationship, but I grew more awkward around him, and I didn't know why, and I ignored it. We were fine when I moved.
A couple days ago Luis finally opened up to me and told me something he'd never told anyone before. I accepted him still. I told him I didn't judge him and never would. He told me I was amazing and loved how I could just accept him for who he was. We were happy again. But today, he told me we don't talk enough, we've lost our connection, and that he doesn't like our circumstances as far as my parents go. Or that when we both start work and college we won't have enough time for each other. It doesn't help that lately I've gotten more nervous around him and it's getting harder and harder to talk to him, to strike up conversations. I started crying and told him we'd make it through, as we always have. But he told me he didn't think it was enough to just make it through. I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose the boy that broke through my social anxiety and connected with me in a way I didn't know any guy could.

Sorry for the depressing post. I had to get it off my chest, and like I said, my parents are only going to be judgemental and yell at me, saying that Luis is a terrible person. Anyways, if you're reading this, thank you.

With love, Marissa.